why does something that seems so simple ....

but in reality, it's so hard? yeah , that was the question on my mind ever since i blurted it out to rebeccah ? she gave me a simple suggestion . and it really seems harmless. but if you only knew, then ... it's not as easy . idk . i wanna blog about what i feel in this one . cuhs it seems like everyone else's is so deep, and mine's so simpleminded. uhm , i hate how i get so involved with someone . and he doesn't even talk to me . i think, i fall for appearances too easily . like, to me, i think he freaking shines . but i don't even know why . and the thing is people see him with his girlfriend, and i never do . i think that's part of the problem . i think i need to see him with his girlfriend, so i can actually accept the reality that he's TAKEN .