dedicated to amy chen <3

okay so . reading rebeccah's thing brought back alot. and i miss it all . i dont know why. maybe freshmen year is ending so we're being nostalgic ? idk . but it makes me really sad . not in a bummed way, but real sad . like graduation sad. i feel like our time is just flying back . reading that made me realize that amy chen is moving a MONTH. wow, that's a really short time. and we're never gonna see her ever again . shit. i'm crying. okay, i'm gonnna go to taiwan in my senior year, and i'm gonna go to taiwan. i'm gonnna go visit amy chen . and i'm gonna make her take me to 光啓社 and watch the bbt recording together. damn it . wow, she's leaving in a month . it doesn't seem real. why is everyone leaving ? riki, chris, and now amy ? sure, chris is coming back in the summer. and riki's coming winter break ? but what about amy ? i walk down to the portables with her every single freaking morning, and i don't realize that. i just walk faster and faster down the stairs, just worrying if mr. wendt will mark me tardy. i don't spend time listening to her when she's yelling my name. i seem to take it as granted. and it's not all just amy too. it's everything about coming to an end. it's summer soon. everyone looks forward to summer. don't get me wrong, i do too . i mean holly gets to live at my house for idk how long. but it's just like, everyone's like summersummersummer. and amy's like i don't want this school year to end. it's just like not fair for her. i'm gonna miss her so so much , it's just like. i've gotten so much closer to her in the span of these two yeras. last year, english . and this year, IC3. ugh , it's all so wrong, and i dont know how to say it . and the thing is her life is so dramaish right now . why can't people just leave her alone ? she's leaving in like 30 days. she only has 30 more days with us left. why do people have to fill her last days with so much frustration ? wow, she only has 30 more days with us left. i really can't accept that. freaky cat lady. that little girl that is always with so much energy and jumping up and down and saying brian's gay and screaming about taiwan celebrities or boys before flowers. i know this is a really long post and most of it is about amy. but that's not what i'm trying to say here. i mean, we only have 30 more days with the peoople in our classes now . sure, we'll see them around next year. we might even get some more classes with them . but it'll still be different. next year, it'll just be like a hey julia ! and nothing more . me and julia have gotten really close during the last couple of months . i guess, it's cuhs we hang out way too much at PE together . but it's not just that . sure next year we'll meet new people . and we'll get close to them . but what about next next year? and the people we got close to next year ? i know it sounds really confusing. but whatever . 

i really hope you read this, amy .