Bu, wan mei .

I think... there's a cricket inside my house. Like, hiding somewhere. Cuhs it's really really loud. I just wasted like an hour doing this FB note thing. You guys should check it out :) I probably tagged you if you were any important. Teehee. So yesterday basically was swimming, going out to eat, and playing egyptian war with Donald. No lies, I won thirteen games out of fourteen. My brother got kinda pissed off in the end, cuhs he kept losing :) So we stopped playing, and he went to sleep. Vincent got two out of thirty on my game thingy. Wow, thanks :P So, San Diego on the 21st and registration on the 6th. Mmm. Nothing much happened today. I'm kinda tired, but not really. I finished another one of those chinese story thingies ! ♥ No lies, I love 穿越小説s. I don't know what I would do without them. I haven't been playin solitaire lately. Should I start again? I never got water and ice cubes in restaraunt city D: That's pretty sad, and Brian Liu took all of my limes >:( But it's okay, cuhs I got what I neeeded in return. Teehee. So, I don't feel really well, but I don't why :P Fml. Just really down ? Kinda, like empty on the inside. But whatever, I'll be fine tomorrow :)

Aerodynamically, bumblebees shouldn't be able to fly, but the bumblebees don't know that so they go on flying anyway.

Once in a lifetime to find HIM.

Tutor seriously ruins my life, yo. Well, it's 2-5 and it's right smack dab in the middle of the day. Sorry, I couldn't stay later, guys :( Today, I woke up around ten o'clock. Megan came, and we talked for a bit. She told me some new stuff ;) And I got dressed. We went downstairs on the computer for like five minutes to check out this stuff she just told me. Then, my brother told us to Brian's house. When we got there, he probably just woke up too :) But it's alright. He was on the computer for like two minutes, and then we went upstairs. We were just listening to music and talking. I don't even remember what we were talking about :) Oh, I found this really cute thing that Christine made him when he went to Carnegie. And then, we went downstairs to go play Wii. Christine and Tiffany made their Miis, and it was so funny :) I'm sorry, Brian, but I gotta say, your sisters took all the funny genes in the family, cuhs what happen to youuu ? (; Jk, best friend ! ♥ You're so lazy. You won't even check how to spell Carnegie for me. Hmph. Anyway, me and Megan played golf for a little while. She beat me like crazy D: Then, Christine and Brian played baseball. I've gotta say, Christine got owned. Then William came, and he brought Brawl and two more controllers. So we started playing golf again, cuhs I said I was gonna beat Megan :) Anyway, we lost track of time, and we, well I, were gonna be late for tutor. So we headed out to Tenren's for lunch. When we were almost turning into DiamondPlaza, Rebeccah calls to tell me that she was gonna come get me soon. And I was like Okay. So I ordered my food To-go, Rebeccah came. Rebeccah and I went to Life to get her Passionfruit green tean with boba :) Then, I stayed around for like ten minutes for my food and then left. Being the genius I am, I remember that I forgot to leave money with them when I'm IN the car and DRIVING. Nice, right? So I owe Brian money right now . Then, we went to tutor. Everything was fine. Then it was break. I go outside of Alpha to call Brian, and I see Vivian walking in the parking lot, and I'm like wtf? 我眼花啦? Anyway, turns out she was there to see Nancy, and Jessica was with her. So I raaaan downstairs to find Jessica crying. There's a lot of crap going on, and I spent my entire break talking with her. Then, I had to get back to class, and Vivian's dad came to take her and Jessica home. Time passed by so slow in class today :( After Alpha, I called up Jessica and was like Hey girl, you gotta get yo ass down here, and we gotta chill down at Life, yeah? Well, not in those exact words ;) Teehee. So anyway, her mommy came to pick me up from Alpha and took us to Tenren's. I went to Tenren's twice today :) Well, so did Jessica, but I went to the exact same one :) She went to the one in Yes Plaza. Anyway, we ordered the shaved ice and the fries, and we just sat there and talked for two, three hours. It was nice, catching up with her :) So, it was like eight, and her dad called. She told her dad to leave the house in ten minutes, and we walked to the space in front of Life to do some more talking. And it was my turn. I told her everything basically from the end of the school year. Like a short summary, kinda? Well, yeah. I've gotta say, we've both changed and yet we're the same people at the same time.
I'm glad we had this catch up day today, Jessica :) Thanks, I needed it.
Sorry for ditching you, Megan! It's okay, you got them boys (;
Brian Dzou, there's alway next time! And I'll make sure that I won't have tutor the day of, yeah ? :)

Boy, you fucked up this time .

Today, I woke up and went to go eat dim sum with my cousins. Then, afterwards, we ended up at my cousins' place in west co. We were just catching up and stuff, and I realized that my little cousins have grown so much. Later on, freaking Holman had to throw me in the pool :P So, I showered at their place, came back to my house for like two minutes, then went out with Vincent. We went to Puente, and Crystal met up with us. We were at Tilt for a bit. Vincent was racing with Robert, and then Crystal and I went to go get BR's. Yay for gold medal ribbon :)We were gonna watch Hangover. I watched it already, but they haven't watched it. So I, being the bigger person, was gonna comply with them (; Teehee. So we split the money for a ticket, and Robert snuck us in. He didn't use up the ticket, so he actually got a refund for it in the end. So we got to watch the movie for free :) So anyway, we got in, and we were right outside of Orphan. So we decided to watch that instead. It was pretty creepy. I got scared bunches of times. Me and Crystal are probably not gonna sleep tonight :) Eeeep. So stay up, homes. I'm probably gonna call one of you :) Gosh, that girl's eyes just haunt me. A;aslkdjf;. So, afterwards, we went to go get Souplantation. And then, AI. We were gonna go to Cue, but it closed at 10 on sunday. Freaking Crystal, you had to be home at 1030 :( It's okay, there's always next time, right ? :) After we took Crystal home, we went to Starshine Park, and we just chilled there for a while till this creepy guy came up to us and was like," Oh, the park's closed." What BS, well I think so :) Overall, nice day. Kinda, anyway.

I don't know what to say. You're probably gonna see this. You said I could trust you, and I did. I even stood up for you. Now I feel so stupid for standing up for something that wasn't even right in the first place. I argued with him like hell over it. I said that if you said you weren't there, then I believe you. We got into a huge argument, and he wouldn't talk to me for weeks. I don't understand why you wouldn't tell me the truth in the first place. It wouldn't have been such a big deal if you told me what you had done. None of this would've happened. Now, I don't know what I'm gonna say to him, cuhs he WAS right in the first place. I can't believe I didn't see it... I don't know how to talk to you now. I wanna be able to trust you again, but I'm sure that next time you tell me something, I'll have to wonder if that's the truth, if that's really it. Why did you lie ? Why did you make her lie? No, I'm not gonna do anything to her. I'm not even gonna mention anything to her, even though you'll probably tell her. Is that really all you care about ? FML.

Sorry, Vincent. I really am :( I'm sorry I didn't believe you in the first place.

Outerspace, spaceships trips kinda love.

This picture reminded me of what Holly said in small group today :)

So today, I woke up around 3 only to find out that mi madre wasn't home. So I went to the kitchen to find food, but I wasn't that hungry. I got cherries and sat there and watch my favorite episode of Hannah Montana. The one where she had to choose between Jake Ryan and Jesse. :) Then, my brother drove us to LA Fitness around four ? He dropped me and Donald off. We were there till around 530. My brother saw William again! I couldn't see anything, cuhs I didn't have my contacts on. We left and went to go get L&L. We got home. I showered. Donald was watching Kendra, then he showered. We went out to go hang out with my cousins. I haven't seen my cousin in forever and we were just catching up for a long time. I got home around 8? Josh came and picked me up. I called Brian on the way there cuhs I got a missed call from him. I told him that we were gonna be late and stuff. We got there and we had to walk, cuhs there were no more parking spaces. When we got there, we saw Chris and Aaron. Chris had McDee's :) He finished his burger, and Josh went to go find him Tylenol. We went in. Brian scooted in next to Matthew to get me a seat. I sat between Brian and Justin. Chris sat behind Justin. Justin was so stupid. So there was a slit in the seat and he put his phone in. He couldn't get it out, and I saw that. I started laughing really hard :) Matthew and Aaron were staring at me like I was an idiot :) Ahaha. I was texting Vincent, but then he died on me :P So, Holly didn't realize I came until more than half way through the lecture. I was gonna surprise her, but the guy in front of me moved, so she saw me :P I told her I wasn't gonna come. Lol :) Small group was crazy. Josh was right, he couldn't handle us. I mean, just take today as an example. We were all over the place. Well, Brian, Aaron, and Chris were. They were throwing these chair accessories to each other. One hit me, and it hurt. Best friend gave me a semi-massage, but he stopped :( We've got to hang out! With the fat china man too. Hehe, LOVE YOU CHRIS :) They tried persuading Josh to have small group at Dolphin Bay :) Teehee. It was Pastor Soon-Teck's birthday today, so we had cake. Dolphin afterwards. Stupid cardtricks :P I didn't get them! I got a mango slush and got Holly and ru rou fan. I kept on taking some of Brian's, cuhs he was looking for the hot sauce :) Josh took us home afterwards. We first went to Holly's house to get my stuff. Thank you Holly Dong, say thank you to your daddy for me! Then we went homee. And yeahp. That was my day :)

Sometimes the hardest thing
to let go of is something you never really had.
What could've happened, didn't.
It's just the way the cookie crumbled.
This is my goodbye to you.
I'll never forget the way you made me smile.

It’s laughing with your friend at a time when you shouldn’t. It’s the sweat in your palms wanting to know someone you see and the pit in your stomach when they actually see you. It’s being touched by hands that aren’t your own. It’s the thrill of an escape that almost wasn’t. It’s the embarrassment you feel, naked for the first time. It’s helping a friend find something they lost. It’s a smile, a joke, a song. It’s what someone does that they like doing. It’s what someone does that they like remembering. It’s the thinking of things you may never do and the doing of things you may never have though. It’s the road ahead and the road behind. It’s the first step and the last and every one in between, because they all make up the good life. –The Good Life

Credits: defineforeverquotes.

Last day of summer school. Hooray !

Why am I so happy all the time? Hmmm, that's a good question. Doris, you got me this time. I don't think it's exactly that I'm HAPPY all the time. I think it's just that I try to see the brighter sides of things. I let myself get beat up, but then I get over it and start all over again. But yeah, I was just thinking about that.

So enough with the emotional crap (; Finally done with summer school ! I didn't ace the class but I got 87% B+ for the second semester. Not that much, right ? :) Anyway, Crystal and them are so mean to me D: Well, Crystal, Gong, and Vincent. I love Doris, Sarah, and Rebeccah :) Well, freaking Rebeccah's mean to me too, but not as much today, cuh's she was preoccupied (; Teehee, don't kill me, Beccah :) Today was basically failed movie night, but it was fun anyway. Robek's, In-n-out, Crystal's house, Dirty Minds, Sexy Slang (I fail at being judge D: ), Classic Burger, Suzanne Park, back to Crystal's house. My favorite time of the day? SuzannePark . So after Rebeccah and them left for AlohaBBQ, Vincent got hungry, and he's like let's go to Classic Burger. Who's up for it? And we all were, so we all went. Thank you, Crystal's mom ! She paid for us :) I had a bacon cheeseburger. Yum :) It was really big, so I didn't get to finish it. I went there before; I just never knew the place was called Classic Burger. My brother took me there once when he was still in high school, which was what? 7 summers ago ? yeahh :) But anyway, the food was good. The conversation was too :) We were talking about Secret Life, then Hannah Montana, then other stuff. It just drifted farther and farther away from Secret Life, but it's okay, cuhs I liked it :) And I love how Vincent took no part in the talking AND spilled oil on his pants. :) Oh ! I remember Knott's Scary Farm came up somewhere in the conversation :) Anyway, afterwards, we were STUFFED. No joke, so we went to Suzanne Park to hang around to digest the food. First, we walked over to the bathrooms cuhs' Crystal, Vincent, and Doris had to use the bathroom. I remember I was spinning around in circles when Doris was in the bathroom. Then, I got super dizy, and I kneeled down and put my head down. It looked like I was bowing or something, according to Doris :) OH ! Shoetakers are evil :P You guys know what I'm talking about, hmph .! I got splinters in my foot for that. Argh. Anyway, yesterday was really fun. We were gonna go to cue and vantage point afterwards, but I couldn't go. and neither could Doris or Sarah. So we didn't end up going. Maybe next time ? I don't know when's the next time I'm gonna see you guys. Well, excluding Rebeccah, Josh, and Vincent.

Richie just IMed me and was like," Did you accomplish the 'ace chem.' thingy in your info ?" and I'm like >;O no. ROFL. Well, I technically did half of it, but I don't think that counts. Rofl. (; I'm gonna miss Walnut. Technically, I'm gonna miss everyone there, but I'll still come back to visit! You guys gave me a hell of a good first-time WHS experience. I'll never forget it. Maybe next year? Idk yet :) Crystal Lee, my favorite WHS senior <3 I'm gonna miss you, girl. This summer was fun, and like I said in my letter, I never knew that when I met you way back during winter break that we'd get this closer like now. I'll definitely ride in your pink car. You can come visit me when the school year starts in DB with your cute pink car, and we can go to Universal's !(; Favorite word: JERK ! Jillian, you're a cuuutie. Even though you won't read this, I'll still write a little something about you. Thanks for making chem a fun class for me :) Well, not really, but seriously? Thanks for listening to me and letting me sit in your seat when you go to the bathroom. And when you come back, you have to go get another chair and pull it up to the table. I trust you too, babe ♥ Kevin Gong, break is always fun with you! I'm pretty sure you won't see this, cuh's as far as I know, you do not have an existent account on Blogspot. Sorry for killing your Vanilla Bean Frap :) It was yummy. Puahah. It sucks how you TAed for Yu-Wong. If you TAed for Braviroff, we'd have so much fun. But you hate Braviroff, so whatever :) Sarah Davila, I haven't seen you since fifth grade, and I would never thought in a million years, that I'd be able to know you like this. July 4th BBQ ! Crystal's a jerk, but I love you ♥ Christopher Yu, I haven't had a class with you since like what? Sixth grade? It's okay, I don't have to say bye cuh's we're still gonna see each other at church anyway! Wesley Wu, thanks for not kicking me off of your seat during the first half of the six weeks :) Thanks for being smart, and thanks for not giving me any of those delicious teabags you had ! >;O You've gotta keep that "I Hate You" sign on your binder forever. Philip Wang, I'm gonna miss you too. Thanks for teaching me cool card tricks. Thanks for adding me on facebook so we started talking :) I'm sorry that we didn't get to know each oother very well. Who knows, maybe next year ? :) Anyone else? I think that's it.

SOORRRY VINCENNT LU. I'M STUPID :(
I know you're not mad, but I still feel bad :(
sorry for always screwing up everything, guys .

All over again .

So today, I woke up at 430 in the afternonn. Genius, right? Yeah, I know :) I woke up, took a shower, and called Holly. I forgot she was at dma, and when I called her to ask if her dad could take me to church, she was like, Annie Wong, I'm at UCR. And I was like. OH YEAH, oops, guess I forgot :) Then I called Josh to take me. Then Rebeccah called and she was like OMG, I JUST SAW A HOOKER ON MY STREET. and I started laughing :) Teehee. Anyway, Brian came back ! I saw him today, he didn't look one bit 12 pounds overweight. Freaking a. I don't know where he put it all ! So it was canoozi night, and it was pretty funn :) I liked the... let's see. the one with the thinking up names for certain categories. We lost :( But it's alright, cuhs we won for the pictionary thingy. Teehee. After church, we went to dolphin bay. Played big2 and texas. I didn't play texas cuhs I didn't know how. I can't believe I still don't know how after 5 weeks of chem class. ROFL. My back hurts right now. :P So yeah, I came home and I webcammed with Holman and Helen. I haven't seen them in forever, but maybe sunday ? Idk. Freaking summer school, I can't go to vegas with them D: Teehee :) Chris Yu came back ! Brian and I gotta go hang out with him. Oh, he got me my magazine. F'sho :) ss501 was the cover, so I was a little disappointed, but Ariel Lin was the other cover. So I'm okay :) 4 more days of summer school ! Whooo. Wednesday is Crystal's Bday dinner, Thursday's movie night. :D I can't waait :) Well, I'm really not in the mood for writing miles long of stuff I did, so yeah :) Goodbyee :D

After all these months, all this time, so much has happened. The talks, the phone calls, the laughs and the feelings. If I were to look back on them, I would never have believed that, that person was once me. I wouldn't recognize that girl because she's so different from me. But I guess changing and moving on is growing up, I'm growing up and finding out what kind of person I want to be for the rest of my life. And maybe in the future, there are more changes to come, but as for right now, this is who I'm proud to be.

Love is overrated. Biochemically no different from eating large quantities of chocolate.

Credits: lifeandlovequotes.

She's like a star .

Don't worry us anymore than you do, please. I miss you, as your old pretty happy self, without all the string attached. Can we just go back, just a little?

Blogspot is like a puzzle. You kinda have to guess what the person is posting about, and then when you finally figure it out, you get kinda happy. ROFL :) Whatever, it's okay.

So ! yesterday was okay. No dota gathering though, cuhs Justin and Chris didn't bring a computer. Josh is stupid for buying alienware for college. :) It's so chunky and heavy. You're gonna have hell trying to haul that thing around, but it's okay. You'll get buffer (; So Holly and Hunter didn't end up going to Discovery. So I woke up, took a shower, thinking that she wasn't home anymore. Then, I see her coming up the stairs yelling, " Annie! My love." O___x Talk about freaky (; Around fiveish, Josh came to pick us up, then we headed to Puente to pick up Justin and Chris. Josh got us boba. Thank you, Josh ! :) So Chris and Justin rock-paper-scissored for the bitch seat when we got to the car, and of course, Justin won. So Chris had to sit in the middle. I don't even see why he bothers; he always loses when he's playing Justin :) Got to Josh's houses. Oh when we were going there, we were debating whether to go pick up Aaron, who lived all the way in Walnut. We didn't in the end, but he did find his own ride ! :) So we watched Changeling for like two minutes. JoshLeu has an Austrilian cousin ! :D Ohmygosh, that's so cool. Josh said that he had an accent, but I didn't hear it all night :( I was waiting for it too ! Rofl. So we ate, and it was really good :) We had beef, bacon, lettuce, mushrooms, shrimps, fish, and rice. Oh, we made shirley temples too :) 7up + that weird syrup thing + grapefruit juice :) I seriously thought they were alcoholic. Rofl. Everyone was so full in the end, except for Chris. And he ate so much! What a fattie. And then, we played Monopoly. I kinda gave up on it :) Hunter was giving us clues and stuff and then Holly got mad. PUAHAHAH. so yeahh . Afterwards, HarryPotter and Mythbusters. Holly wouldn't stop taking pictures.

The important thing is not to be bitter over life's disappointments. Learn to let go of the past, and recognize that every day won't be sunny. And when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair, remember, it's only in the black of night that you see the stars, and those stars lead you back home.

Love is a minefield. You take a step, get blown to pieces, put yourself back together again, and stupidly take another step. I guess thats human nature. It hurts so much to be alone that we'd all rather blow up than be single.

-------edit X 7/17 1110PM
That was an old post.
Maybe last week? July eleventh .
Just thought I'd post it .